Self-hate? Self-goals? Change. Fear. No/Yes. YES.
For me, someone who is social, an extrovert, this change I encountered, was dramatic, extreme and not to forget panicking. In the last two-three years, I have transformed to an unimaginable extent. When I say unimaginable, I particularly remember the imagination or definition of 'life', I had 3 years ago. And today, as I write this blog, I know that the definition of life has changed. It is nowhere close to the one I had before. I used this analysis of myself as a parameter of growth. I grew. Older, wiser and healthier. What changed? Many things. My previous writings talked about a few. Today, I write about another one. The ability to be alone. For many people, this is not as challenging. However, this for me was an impossible place to be. I have had problems being alone with myself since puberty. As I was growing, I wanted to know more people, have myself surrounded by family and friends all the time. I don't remembe